Friday, Katelin and I celebrated one year of being together. This was obviously a special day that we had been waiting on for at least the past two months, even caving and exchanging presents weeks before the big day. It pretty much felt like a summer long celebration, and I loved it!
This is my first ever relationship, and Katelin's first serious relationship. And, um, relationships are freaking difficult.
The two of us have been best friends since junior high, so we already knew a lot about one another upon entering this stage, but little did I know how much things shift when one goes from "BFF" to "girlfriend."
Listen up: I would not have survived the past six months had I not been a host to so much love for myself. Nope, it just wouldn't have happened. How incredible and terrifying is that? That I need to have just as much love for ME as I do for HER?
Love for myself has been life changing. It completely turned this world upside down to uncover a new and mind-shattering view. There's never a time to be ready for it, to prepare yourself for this, you just do it. It's seriously just a decision that you jump into without looking back.
That's how this relationship has been for me, too. Absolutely world-changing and confusing but wonderful. Something I never want to go back from.
Self-love carries me through everything: my daily activities, my awesome days and my disgusting ones, times of depression and times of excitement. Name it and self-love is there for me.
Even when I'm refusing to use it.
Without this past year of practicing in it, I wouldn't be living such an amazingly joyous, simple life, and I wouldn't have made it to this year mark with Katelin.
Without self-love I cannot do an inkling as much as I can when I'm basking in it.
Absolutely a terrifying and incredible realization.
So, happy anniversary to my sweetie, who only ever encourages me to continue in my practice.