Currently I am fighting the battle of being two girls.
One is the girl who I am most hours: when I'm happy, having fun, or when I'm understanding and compassionate. She is who I strive to be.
The other is who I try to hide, cover up, and push away. She is the one who hurts so bad and strikes out violently and cruelly because of it. I am ashamed of who I am when she takes over.
The...
5/26/13
5/22/13
So Hard
Today has been hard. So hard.
Katelin and I have been planning for a good friend of mine to come up for two weeks, and she arrives Wednesday the 28th. We found out my aunt and cousin are arriving this weekend last week. Today we found out four other family members are also coming up.
If you know someone with anxiety, you know how hard these sudden plans become.
If you know someone...
5/21/13
New Summer Routine
A few weeks back I told Katelin once school was out I was going to make it a habit to do yoga after breakfast and after yoga take Ruby (the dog) for a walk.
Today we began making this goal a reality.
I realize that sentence just made this seem way more bad-ass than it may actually...
5/19/13
Flat Belly Skinny Thighs
Tonight, as my fingers clack across the keyboard, I prepare for an all-nighter. What does this include? Pinterest. My greatest obsession and inspiration.
Pinterest is where I discover crazy awesome DIY's like wallpapering your fridge, making an indoor tabletop water garden, or making a butterfly feeder!
I also discover super delicious treats to bake, healthy but yummy...
5/17/13
Ecopark
Tuesday Katelin and I checked out the local ecopark. Uh, it was not what the website made it seem. Not even a little.
The website boasted of trails galore, a petting zoo, and tens of family activities. The reality hosted a large building with a fake hawk and one...
5/15/13
Being Proud
Trees in bloom on my campus.
Another week has reached it's middle, and I am so thankful for what is wrapping up and what is just starting.
Two finals stand in my way of warm, summer days in bed and even more summer adventures. I'm going to take this time to just be immensely proud of...
5/11/13
Your Body is Saying, "Listen"
Though you may think you know what your body needs, your body knows better.
If your body is telling you to sit down and just breathe for a second, listen to it!!
For a girl who constantly feels the need to be getting something done or moving on to the next thing this is a very hard lesson. It's also a necessary one to follow considering I had mono only a few months ago, and relapses happen....
5/9/13
Living Like a Butterfly
Picture yourself only having a life of 24 hours.
How would you spend the one day that totals up your life?
Instead of counting your age by years, you count by hours, by minutes.
Maybe you don't even notice time.
How would you treat others?
How would you treat yourself?
You only have a day...
Do you want to spend that time thinking hurtful things?
Saying hurtful things?
Being filled with negative...
5/7/13
The End
The end is always the
hardest.
I don’t mean this in
some deeper-meaning, death way of thinking… I mean it as I’m in the last
one-and-half weeks of spring semester, and finals are upon me, and I still have
daily homework, and it’s beautiful out, but I’m inside with greasy hair and no deodorant
on and…
Is there a store college
kids can buy motivation at? Because I ran out two weeks ago. The...
5/6/13
Suck It Up
Do you ever catch
yourself sucking your stomach? Even just lying in bed I’ll realize I’m restricting
my gut backwards.
On my very best days I’ll
catch myself doing it!
It doesn’t feel good,
but after years of self-esteem issues (especially surrounding the stomach area)
it’s become automatic.
Flat bellies are in
now, right? That’s what the magazines say, the TV shows say, and the gym-babes
walking...
5/2/13
You are Wonderful
When you say something
you regret—to your mom, sister, boyfriend/girlfriend, stranger on the street—know
that you are still wonderful.
When you mess up for
the third, fourth, or tenth time—on an exam, in your personal endeavors, in
your faith, in your relationship, at your craft—you are still wonderful.
If you think you have
lost everything about yourself, screwed up everything that you had...
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